Does marijuana help sleep?

Lately I have been having a heck of a time sleeping due to some financial issues that someone has left me in, and been consuming more at night to help me sleep.  I get why this can be an issue but for some people, It’s a necessity.  Anyways, I find that despite taking the cannabis before bed helps me shut down and pass out, but I’m not getting a ton of sleep.  take last night for example… I was in bed and still awake at 5 AM, and it’s not even 10 AM and I am wide awake. Ive barely been sleeping and nothing seems to help. Im stressed to the hilt and jsut can’t seem to come out from under it!

The past few eeks are a bit of a blur.  From being all content and happy one day then an argument with the woman I love that changes everything.  That, I can handle.  The realization that I have been misled and lied to for so long is what I can’t seem to grasp.  So it wreaks havoc on my sleep.  I medicate to fall asleep and by 630 AM I am wide awake, thinking about all that’s happened and can’t get back to sleep.  It’s driving me insane!  This is why I’ve built this place.  A Place for people like me to ask the age old question of why?! It’s what everyone at the end needs to know.  I truly  believe if people weren’t so glued to the technology they carry around at all times that things would be a lot more peaceful and there would be a lot more communication.

 

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December 31, 2016…

Happy New Year everyone… not that anyone’s even read this.  Another shit year to forget, and a new year to look forward to all the crap you wanted to forget for next year.  Too many things to forget.  Now, I love the holidays, especially how Andie used to make such a big deal about it.  Trees, cards, rabbits… I miss it all. Where was the effort for everything else?

 

I miss Andrea.  I just hope she’s happy with who she’s with now.  Because I won’t be happy at all.

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December 29, 2016

Hey all.  So today was a bit of a daunting day.  I’ve been sleeping better but I am still not recovering as fast as I wanted.  I seriously hate Ikea for that design they have on their bed frames.  How does anyone sleep like that?  Mission for tomorrow: Get new bed frames.  Maybe.  We will see.  But this weekend is New Years.  It’s not going to be the same without Andie around.  But it’s gotten a little easier.  I feel some room to breathe finally since I was able to vent all of my frustrations.  Doesn’t mean that i don’t miss her like crazy, because I do.  I would take her back in a heartbeat, but I know that’s just a fantasy in my head.

I bought a Keurig K200 today.  Seems to work ok, but I found out that the pods I need aren’t even available.  So what the heck.  It makes a way better cup of coffee, and I think I will use it more.  If anyone knows where eto get the K-Mug pods let me know, because I can’t order them here in Canada.

I have also been contacted to test out some backpacks and various other items… and that’s cool and all but I don’t really get what these people want.  I mean they are decent backpacks etc, but I am not really a hiker.  So I gave it to Andie to try out and she said it was perfect.

I keep checking the door seeing if she’s here.  It’s weird and I need to get the fuck over it all but I just am still reeling in the lies that she has told everyone.  And to top it off, I want her back lol.  How dumb am i?

 

Anyways…. Blog more later.

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December 27, 2016

Today I woke up to see a good chunk of the snow gone.  I had a feeling that it would start to warm up but it’s gone a lot quicker than I anticipated.  Bad dreams last night.  Keep dreaming about Andie and I can’t seem to shake it.  I guess there’s still a lot I need to come to terms with.  Why would she lie about so much for so long?  It’s not like I look at her like a failure… how could I? She’s the one person I couldn’t ever see as a failure.  I miss her.  In more ways than I should go into… but I miss her.

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